Labor Day

Monday, September 6. It’s Labor Day. 

Everyone looks forward to days like Labor Day. For most Americans, you’re either on vacation, celebrating the end of summer, or enjoying a day of relaxation at home. 


We aren’t going anywhere for this weekend. For months, I’ve been thinking that this Labor Day would be a Daddy-Julie Day. For the last few weeks, just hoping. 


Whenever I would be home all day and it’s unexpected, Julie inevitably would spend the whole day with me. I got the strange sense that she somehow could tell the difference between a holiday like Labor Day and a regular Saturday. Those bonus me-at-home days were always taken advantage of. 


Today was the first bonus day off without Julie. What’s worse is, I’ll be home both tomorrow and Wednesday, too, for Rosh Hoshanah. 


Julie and I would’ve been in heaven. 

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